It is difficult for me at times to accept my body for its imperfections. From a young age, I have struggled with focusing on whatever wasn’t right with my body. This could be weight, being too tall, not being good at a particular sport, or having a bad hair day. Our society is very focused on the physical, and a perfect physical body often appears to be a perfect person.
Each day my body seems to fail me, I have to find a sense of compassion and grace. What I had hoped for, is not always what reality is. My body can hurt in situations it shouldn’t hurt, can wear out before I want it to, can limit my activities because I am too tired, or lead me to do things I would rather not do. I can’t always control what comes my way, and this powerlessness can result in frustration. If I can find a way to bring some acceptance and love to the less than, I will have more compassion for myself and be able to integrate all that my body is. When I bring love to myself, this also flows out to others around me. I become less judgmental, able to focus on the more important things in life.
Today, I will try to be more aware of when I put shame upon myself. I will strive for serenity, accepting the things I cannot change, and making changes in the areas I can.
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