I have been doing a lot of writing today. It is feeling therapeutic as I take some time to reflect and surrender. I have been battling several colds and injuries that have kept me less mobile, so writing is a better use of my time then all the computer games I have been playing.
I have written over the past 6 months in my blog about various changes I have made to my life to improve my health. I have been more careful about my food about 70% of the time. This means that I aim to eat really healthy most of the time, but still have my treats. I have been eating various foods from the Medifast program, as well as taking the Raw Meal Powder to make shakes for my morning meals. I find that a Raw Meal Shake is a great way to start the day (adding fruit and yogurt), and the Medifast desserts are a great way to end my day. In the morning, I have about 5 cups by my computer – 2 shakes (can’t ever make it small enough), water, coffee, and sometimes airborne and/or tea. Let’s say, I clear the system early with all the trips to the bathroom. In the afternoon/evening I tend to go for some protein (fish, veggie burgers, occasional red meat/chicken). I use cottage cheese and salsa on a lot of things. Those veggies are still hard to get in – need to add some to my shakes. I feel better with a lower fat diet and with a moderate amount of carbs. I would probably do even better if I could avoid the chips I had today. I am brainstorming on how to pack my weird foods to work next week. Maybe if I bring the salad, I will be forced to eat my veggies.
Exercise has slowed recently because of illness and injury. I joined a soccer team to work on my personal soccer skills, but have missed a few weeks. I also play racquetball, but this may not work anymore with my work schedule and other issues that have come up. I love this type of activity because I feel more like playing than working out. I enjoy the P90X weight routines, because they start out simple and progress. When I am sick, I can go to an easier plan. When I am able to keep a regular routine I can add time and intensity.
My pain has felt much better lately. I had some work done on my back that has helped tremendously in working through the knots and tension. Though I still ache, much of the time it is mild. Once or twice a week the pain will affect my sleep. The other times my sleep is effected is usually my own stress, or the cats sleeping at my feet.
I have been struggling more with the emotional and mental challenges. I can’t always cope well with the stress around me, and can find myself discouraged and slightly depressed when I am sick for days on end. I am doing more reading and have rejoined a support type of group which will be helpful. I will however lose some of my other support when I return to work. In many ways, I believe work will give me some time not to over focus on things, at the same time it could wear me down. Keeping myself spiritually and value focused will be important so I don’t self defeat.
I am enjoying the warmer weather and more time outdoors. Oregon is beautiful this time of year, and energizes me. We have a few weeks of down time before my commitments pick up, so hopefully grace will follow me into the busy time of the year.
ET,Thanks for sharing! Sorry to hear about the emotional challenges you have run up against. I just got “genetic testing” done by a new Psychiatrist and based on that changed my depression meds. No real changes to my mood yet. She also thinks there may be some sleep apnea causing pain and depression issues. Have you ever had this done?I wish I could find a support group. My level of isolation is increasing and makes me focus on my pain.Not sure if I can reply to you directly, sorry if not.Thanks,LK Date: Fri, 3 May 2013 21:36:40 +0000 To: email@example.com
Thank you for the feedback. How interesting that they do genetic testing – makes sense as many things are genetic. This is not something I have done. If you want to reply to me directly my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org. Many of my methods of support have been from non-pain specific groups such as a spiritual group and a 12 step group. I have also found support through various exercise classes, like yoga, which can have many people with health issues. I believe there are support groups in my area, but I haven’t taken part in them. I imagine they would be helpful, especially in learning to navigate through the medical community. I have found more specific ideas and encouragement through reading blogs, and writing. It can be a tough journey, I hope you find the support to help you through it. Blessings, Elissa